"Oh, my Lord, I am not _______."
Before Moses was the leader of a movement for freedom, he was a prisoner of his own flaws.
When you think of the story of the Exodus, I'm sure a few specific events come to mind. Moses murders an Egyptian, is called by God at the burning bush, tells Pharaoh to let his people go, Pharaoh says, "nah," God pours the ten plagues out over Egypt, Pharaoh relents on the enslavement of the Israelites, then changes his mind, then chases them to the Red Sea, God splits the sea, Egypt drowns, and Israel is free to wander for forty years.
It is truly one of the most epic stories, not only in the history of the Biblical narrative, but in the history of the world. Throughout the story of the Exodus, Moses' leadership is on full display. Of course, he has his moments, but who doesn't? Overall, he is someone to be admired, and like most instances of greatness, it started with a humble beginning, but if it had been up to him, it wouldn't have happened at all.
Exodus 4:10-12, "Moses said to the Lord, 'Oh, my Lord, I am not eloquent, either in the past or since you have spoken to your servant, but I am slow of speech and of tongue.' Then the Lord said to him, 'Who has made man's mouth? Who makes him mute, or deaf, or seeing, or blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now therefore go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall speak.'”
Moses says, "Lord, I am not eloquent, I am slow of speech and tongue." Commentators believe that Moses probably had a speech impediment, but what was God calling him to do? Go and speak on His behalf for the nation of Israel. Sometimes the thing that God calls us to do is the very thing that we're most uncomfortable doing.
There is nothing politically correct about God's response to Moses, He isn't walking on eggshells or trying to make sure Moses doesn't feel offended. Moses says, "But, Lord! I don't talk too good!" God doesn't answer him like, "Oh, that's not true, Moses. Don't be so hard on yourself! You're an amazing communicator, you will do incredible!" Not even in the slightest, but He does speak lovingly, compassionately, in a truthful, and empowering way. God basically says, "Moses, I know you're not the greatest communicator. But who do you think made man's mouth? Who made made the mute, deaf, seeing, or blind? I will be your mouth and teach you what to say."
Can you imagine the insecurities that rise up in Moses' heart? God reveals this incredible plan, but one of the focal points of that plan is for Moses, the guy who doesn't speak well, to speak frequently.
What is you not? Moses says, "Oh, my Lord, I am not eloquent." You may not have a speech impediment, but you can fill that blank in with another word. Maybe you feel like God is calling you to do something that touches a sore spot in your life, something that makes your insecurities rise to the surface where you've always kept them suppressed. God asks for something that Moses doesn't want to let go of because the distance between where you are and where God is also happens to be where our faith matures.
God isn't asking Moses to do something comfortable, He is calling Moses to do something crazy. Why? Because when Moses surrenders a speech impediment into God's hands, then by God's power, for God's glory, what Moses saw as a speech impediment, God will use as an eloquent megaphone of freedom and glory. The very thing that you think keeps you from walking in God's calling on your life may in fact be what God wants to use as a catalyst for His calling on your life.
God isn't looking for someone who has everything figured out, just someone faithful enough to do something crazy with Him. For your good, but most importantly, for His glory.
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